so I just had one of the shittier birthday's that I have ever had, especially after last year's highs, but, don't get me wrong, I am actually content with my life for the moment, although I do want more, I am enjoying my current job, I have a wonderful girlfriend, and I finally have most of my bills in order again. I just need a couple more months and I'll be back on track with all of them... and yet, today (now actually yesterday) fell short, my gf took me to eat a few days ago in celebration of my 26th year completed on this earth which was nice, but today, I woke up feeling really rather ill, and I recieved no gifts during the 24 hours that are actually my birthday, which isn't such a big deal, but something small would have been nice, also I had to work, but it was my friday, so I can be greatful for that, but still sucked I spent most of my waking hours sitting in front of a computer speaking with people who clearly have issues which customer service cannot help with... ah, listen to me, I'm becoming a cynic more and more each day, fuck, that's such a far cry from the eternal optimist I try to be, and some people think I am... but I really just try to say only positive things out loud, because it seems like people like hearing that, and get tired of bitching... I guess I get tired of the bitching too... anyhow, here's hoping that my 26th try at this game we call life goes better than the past 25...

so I just had one of the shittier birthday's that I have ever had, especially after last year's highs, but, don't get me wrong, I am actually content with my life for the moment, although I do want more, I am enjoying my current job, I have a wonderful girlfriend, and I finally have most of my bills in order again. I just need a couple more months and I'll be back on track with all of them... and yet, today (now actually yesterday) fell short, my gf took me to eat a few days ago in celebration of my 26th year completed on this earth which was nice, but today, I woke up feeling really rather ill, and I recieved no gifts during the 24 hours that are actually my birthday, which isn't such a big deal, but something small would have been nice, also I had to work, but it was my friday, so I can be greatful for that, but still sucked I spent most of my waking hours sitting in front of a computer speaking with people who clearly have issues which customer service cannot help with... ah, listen to me, I'm becoming a cynic more and more each day, fuck, that's such a far cry from the eternal optimist I try to be, and some people think I am... but I really just try to say only positive things out loud, because it seems like people like hearing that, and get tired of bitching... I guess I get tired of the bitching too... anyhow, here's hoping that my 26th try at this game we call life goes better than the past 25...